This past week was hard in more ways than one. My boyfriend left, my roommate and sister left to go to America, and my puppy died. It just felt like everything was empty and without purpose. Sometimes my feelings are dramatic, so I stayed feeling like that for a little while. I didn’t know what to do and I felt a little stuck. I pretty much cried through the whole week.
But God has a way of bringing good out of the bad. He turns all my painful experiences into something I can learn and grow from. Having people that I care about leave and feeling an emptiness with them gone makes me so thankful that I have them in life. I have so many good people in my life, and I’m thankful for the empty feeling sometimes to remind me of how blessed I am.
My puppy dying took me completely by surprise. I didn’t understand why God allowed it to happen and I still don’t, but I know that I don’t need to. It made me realize how short and fleeting life is, and it only takes a second for everything to be over. I always put things off and regretted that a lot in that moment (and still do). I always think that I have other days when I can change things. I never feel like there’s any rush. I don’t want to stay so complacent, though.
Right now, I feel content, but I also know what I do with my time today matters, and I don’t have time to waste.
I think sometimes God has to let bad or sad things happen for us to start listening to what He’s been trying to say all along. It’s like an awakening call; although it feels rude, it’s important.
I still miss everyone, but I’m enjoying hearing about the things they’re doing where they are right now. We have a schedule that’s been working well, and even though we’re down two people everything is going relatively smoothly.
I’m excited and nervous about what the future holds, but I know that God has a plan for when hard things come. I know that He cares about everything that happens, whether big or small, and that knowledge brings a lot of comfort.
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