And just like that, it’s Sunday again. Sundays here are far from being the relaxing off- day that they are typically known as. Let’s just say it’s good that it’s the day that follows Sabbath. haha. Today particularly seemed long. Not for any certain reason, probably just because I have been extra tired.
I’ve been surrounded by kids, hearing kids, and watching kids for the majority of the day. Even now, I’m sitting here with girls playing around me as I watch the dorms till bedtime. While I love many of the little moments I get to witness, like Gauv randomly repeating “stinky” after I told him he was a stinky boy, or Alu latching onto me like a sloth on a tree branch, or Naam running up with arms open for me to scoop her up in a hug, there were many equally challenging times today. And I don’t think I can handle one more fit thrown over nothing.
During days like today, I’m learning to pray for patience, joy, and love. Regardless of how much I feel like being left alone. I didn’t come here to vacation, and I certainly knew it was not gonna be easy. It’s not all about me. And that is good. I get to grow in ways I am not challenged to in my dominantly self-focused life at home. So I pray for energy, genuine smiles, patience to deal with each meltdown, and contentment in the chaos of now.
If nothing else, I can look back at today and know I got to practice growth. Sometimes, I struggle to see how it all adds up in the big picture. It is not about just surviving today, but about growing so that tomorrow can be better. I know life is full of difficult days no matter where I am. Life at home brings its own share of hard days. So I am thankful to be learning how to rely more on Jesus with each one. Not just in theory but with each moment, with each crying kid I get the privilege to comfort, each hug I get to share, and each acknowledging smile I give. How beautifully practical it is to learn to walk with Jesus.
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